In Excile

Fooling all as I begat from the mother of lies, master at my deception until all collapses without forewarning.
Sinking so far I'm incapable of identifying normality again, yet desire courses through my veins like acid scorching what was once living.
Is it pain keeping me alive? No. It's a cruel joke that forces air into my lungs. A reflex that ought to be unnatural to the body, nonetheless alien to the mind delivering me into wickedness.
Or is this my descendent into madness? No answers for questions lost on deaf ears. My voice is silenced by my persuasion.
Attitude runs amuck then I'm chastised for it, saddened by consequence. Left with nothing, residing in isolation.
It hurts. The loneliness I'm exiled to, not understanding the why's. Still, here I am to dwell in solitude.
Again, antics flow like water and no one is wiser of the difference. As if anyone aspires as long as I have.
At hand lies the problem. Full refusal of all regulation as I wish not to be controlled, but long for love. Someone must exist whose up for the task. Thus far, paralyzed by fear because there is no such character.
And there it is. Simplicity at its best. Love won't intervene as I am no longer worthy of its possession.
Perhaps the amount acquired was my limit. Left broken with no hope of repair and not deserving of such.
Persecuted and bound in emptiness. Stranded in a moment of time, reaching for help with not another soul created for my salvation.
Trudging on while continuing to suffer since the better part of me died long ago leaving me forlorn with only bittersweet memories.

End the Cycle Now!

Domestic abuse is the leading cause of injury to women. The statistics listed below are mind-boggling and most who have never experienced such a heinous act are asking, “Why in the hell would anyone put up with that?” Believe me, every single woman who is assaulted has asked herself this question thousands of times. There is no answer. Call it brainwashing, stupidity, or naïvety. It is what it is; a crime that can be punishable with time in prison. 
I will run a series dedicated to saving woman and children from the violent hands of their offenders in an attempt to help them end the cycle of abuse. There are people out there willing to do anything to help you and your children.  
If you are in an abusive relationship go to http://www.thehotline.org/ or call a hotline NOW.

• National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1-800-799-7233 or TTY 1-800-787-3224
• Crime Victims Hotline: 1-866-689-4357
• Rape & Sexual Assault Hotline: 1-212-227-3000
• TTD phone number for all hotlines: 1-866-604-5350

All studies, statistics, and information listed in End the Cycle NOW are found at the National Domestic Violence Hotline www.thehotline.org/  and the U.S. National Library of Medicine National Institutes of Health  website  www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/domesticviolence.html from reputable agencies such as the Mayo Clinic.  

• Every nine seconds in the United States a woman is assaulted or beaten by someone she knows and trust.
• Studies suggest that up to ten million children witness some form of domestic violence annually.
• Every day in the United States, more than three women are murdered by their husbands or boyfriends.
• Between 55 percent and 95 percent of women who had been abused never contacted help organizations, shelters, or the police for help.
• The costs of inmate partner violence in the US alone exceed $5.8 billion per year.
• Men who as children witnessed their father’s violence were twice as likely to abuse their own wives than of sons of nonviolent parents.

Throughout this series you find information about many topics such as:

• What is abuse
• Help – financial, legal, community, counseling, and resources
• Education about the legal system
• Creating a safety plan
• Stories from domestic abuse survivors
• How you can help and become an advocate